“He makes me brave” by Kerry Blacklock

“You make me brave” – Bethel Music & Amanda Cook

When I was about 18 years old I lived in Paia, Maui, Hawaii for 6 months in a house full of mostly American & Canadian girls who were all there to attend a YWAM Discipleship Training School (DTS).  At the end of it we went on mission trips to various places and the team I was on went to Tonga & Samoa.  One of my best friends in that team was a Canadian girl called Kerry Collins.  She was funny, vivacious, slightly crazy but in a good way haha, could totally kick my ass whenever we’d go for a run or did any kind of exercise, was really outgoing and embraced the island culture & lifestyle like she was a local!  We kept in touch for a few years after we all went home but kind of lost contact after a while until last year when she found me on good old facebook lol!  She is now married to Matt Blacklock, they have 3 kids and are currently ministering with Fe Viva World Missions in Guatemala, Central America.  

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L-R Me, Josh Lepin (my other best mate from the Samoa/Tonga missions team) & Kerry

I had the idea to ask a few people if they’d like to share anything for my SoulFood section and Kerry was the first person to respond.  Here is what she has shared with me and I hope it will bless you too.  

 “Though my father and mother forsake me, The Lord will receive me. Do not turn me over to the desires of my foes, for false witnesses rise up against me, breathing out violence.  I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of The Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the the Lord, be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord”  Psalm 27: 10-14

He Makes Me Brave by Kerry Collins Blacklock

Fear to me is looking at my circumstances without considering how great my God is. Oh no, my husband is leaving me for three weeks what will I do?  My daughter is learning to drive, gasp, I can’t breath. This child in our children’s home keeps stealing and is not changing. Where are you Lord? I am in so much deeper than my head and the shoreline is too far to reach. But this love is greater than any of my fears, You are for me, not against me. So I plunge into the reality of who you are and not what my circumstances tell me.

Many times I calculate the cost to me personally if I take on a new challenge but I do not consider the One who overcame sin and the grave and won my heart. Worrying springs from my determination to get my own way and to accomplish my goals with my limited strength. I am learning that I am an ordinary and weak human being, but I don’t use human plans and methods to win my battles. (2 Corinthians 10:13).

I choose to seek His face, not only His hand or heart. Not only His mind but His face. The intimacy of His eyes, the unescapable look of His eyes.  I am learning to humble myself, be brave and look up and be known by my creator. I can hide in my pain, shame, discomfort. I can hide in examining myself, by splitting hairs and trying to eradicate my life of sin, speck by speck but this is vanity. You are my champion, you made a way for me to enter in. Come like a rushing flood, let your blood cleanse me of all my filth.  Can I just stand as I am?  Not ready by any action I have taken but by knowing You are good and Your love endures to all generations.  So I stand, brave, face to face, not to be tried but to be received, covered, clothed, cleansed and to be converted to be one with the Champion of my heart. So now, let your great love compel us. May we speak the words of your heart to those who are fearful and need your courage. Can we behold your beauty and be held by your love. Make us brave!

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